I just didn’t want to count my chickens before they hatched, you knew that. Thank you, Honey. They do, Carole as I’m pretty sure the whole neighborhood can hear is far too excited about this and I can’t remember the last time my Dad has smiled like this, can you? God, it feels so good to finally have that just… dealt with. Just some confirmation that this isn’t going to slip away when I blink or fall through. It feels amazing. Actually, almost amazing as that sounds. I can’t complain about a congratulatory date, in fact, I’m beyond excited. The restaurant of my choice? Alright; how about that little place you took me in Rome before you proposed? Their pasta was to die for.
In all seriousness, I can’t wait. With everything going on within the past few months our dates have been suffering and I’d be lying if I said I didn’t miss them.
I know, I know, but I’m glad all the waiting is over. After everything you’ve been through, you deserve to just relax and actually enjoy this. Your dad has every reason to be proud of you, right now especially. Not everyone gets into NYADA, and I doubt they expected to accept anyone from the small town of Lima, Ohio, so I can’t wait for you to show them just how incredible you are once you get there in the fall.
…As much as I’d love for us to have another date in Rome, we might have to take a rain check on that, but you have my word that I will take you on that date. Whether it’s this summer or a few years from now, I promise it’ll happen. I’ve missed them too, but between Chicago and summer coming up, I have every intention of making up for the lack of romantic dates we’ve had.
I hope everyone had an incredible prom and enjoyed the after party as much as I did but even with all of that and the excitement, nothing quite beats getting your acceptance letter in the mail. It’s official, in the Fall, Kurt Elizabeth Hummel will be enrolled at the New York Academy Of Dramatic Arts! After months of stress, no doubt driving some of you up the wall and an incredible bout of nervousness, I can finally breathe again. I can’t believe this is finally happening but I really just want to thank those of you that have dealt with my low moments and my highs, it means a lot that you’ve put up with me because I know it wasn’t always easy. Especially you, Blaine. You have absolutely no escape from it so… Just thank you all.
I don’t know where we’re all going to be in a few months or what we’re going to be doing but I’m really thankful we’ve had the last few years and I hope that many more will come, even if we weren’t always on the same page. Now that this is off my shoulders and I don’t have to worry about it, I think it’s time to focus on the fact that Nationals is days away and we’re going to kick some ass and add yet another trophy to McKinley’s case.
I know how much you like surprises, but…I can’t say I’m surprised at all. Your audition was amazing and anyone with eyes and ears could see that. You deserve this more than anyone I know, and I’m sure Burt and Carole want to have a big family dinner tonight, but tomorrow I’m taking you out on a proper congratulatory date, just the two of us. Restaurant of your choice.
I’m going to have to apologize for my absence, but the general activity for the past few weeks. My NYADA audition was taking up most of my time and I was stressing on perfecting it - which is seemingly what happened as Mrs. Carmen Tibideaux actually praised me on it which is apparently a fairly impossible feat. I’ve been stalking the NYADA message boards and so far she’s made three of them cry, two of them have given up on their dreams and already put their applications into White Castle; which is a shame but those willing to give up that easy are not made to fall among the stars. Regardless, I’m feeling very confident with everything thus far and sincerely can actually breathe for what feels like the first time since… Well, I applied but then it was simply waiting for my letter and.. The process is almost over, so we’ll see where that goes.
As happy as I am that my audition went flawlessly, my excitement has shifted to Blaine’s show tonight! His first NYC gig! First of many to come, actually - trust me on this. Once they see him perform they won’t want anyone else, I have a gut feeling so there is no sense in questioning it. He’s going to look so perfect up there singing his heart out, as he often does, but it’s going to be really nice to see it in such a wide spectrum. We already know he’s fully capable of captivating an entire theater full of people, so this will be a cake walk. We’ve managed to look at a few apartments but so far, we’ve yet to find the one. Early preparation and securing one for August has been the general thought process but I’m not so sure it’s going to happen this time but we’ll see. We fly home tomorrow night after an incredible few days here so who know’s what’s to come?
New York already feels like home and I really can’t wait to get here in the summer. I’d almost forgotten entirely about Prom and Nationals with how busy we’ve been but I’m sure come Monday, a very stress-free and refreshed Kurt Hummel will be walking through the doors of McKinley and we’ll have absolutely no problem what so ever winning yet another National trophy. I hope everyone’s weeks and weekends have been well! I know mine has been nothing short of perfect.
I think you’re definitely leaving out all the best parts, but I posted the video for everyone to see so I’m sure they’ll all be able to fill in the blanks. You’re going to get into that school and NYADA’s going to have it’s new future Broadway star before they know it. All the teachers are going to love having you and I wouldn’t be surprised if you were one of the best auditions they’ve ever had in the history of NYADA.
Well, I wouldn’t be performing tonight if it weren’t for my gorgeous and talented fiance and my supportive older brother. I haven’t really given it much thought with all the excitement from the audition, but now that everything’s settling down I’m pretty excited for it, which…is an understatement, but enough talking about me. We’re going to find an apartment in no time. We have all summer to do it, and better to find something amazing than to settle for the first place we find. Either way, I’ll be living with you in a few months, so the rest are just details.
I know, I know but.. The moment is almost here and it’s just a lot to handle and… I don’t know, I’m panicking. Thank you I appreciate it but I could sound better, I have to sound better. They’ve probably already seen a hundred or so auditions, what if it blurs together? What if someone else has done my song? What if they’ve done it better? I don’t want to be another face in the crowd. Thank god the flight was smooth now just to… Handle the rest of this.
Then we’ll keep practicing until you do, but you’ve honestly blown me away with every run through of your song, and each time you sound better than the last. I highly doubt anyone else has chosen the song you have, and even if they have then you’re going to make it your own anyway, just like you always do. You could never be another face in the crowd, Kurt. When you nail your audition tomorrow, you’ll see that.
We leave tomorrow for New York. I don’t know what’s more horrifying at this point, the fact I’m not going to be able to focus on an apartment and the potential they could all have, the fact this is my Dad’s first time on a plane in twelve years or… That my nerves are completely shot and just about every single negative scenario has replayed in my head two hundred times. I will miss you all, if I die in the process; I had a good life. I’ll leave you in Rachel Berry’s all too capable hands.
Kurt, breathe. You’ve been working on this audition song for months now, and honestly you have never sounded better. You’re going to blow all the judges away, and we’ll have plenty of time to find an apartment over the summer. Right now all our focus is on your audition. The flight is going to be smooth sailing and nothing bad’s going to happen, at least nothing we can’t handle. You’re going to be incredible and NYADA’s going to want to accept you in a heartbeat.
Okay, looking back I admit I was a little ridiculous, but you know how I get. We might as well get the mental break downs out of the way now, right? It’s hard not to worry when it’s approaching so quickly, and I just… Keep thinking of how things will go if I don’t nail this. I know I have backups but… I just really, really want this. You’re wonderful and I have no idea how you deal with me. The plane is our best route, I think, though the other sounds charming. I really hope you’re right, Baby. No choking, not ever. I just… need to get the mental image out of my mind as soon as humanly possible. Thank you, Blaine. I mean it, I know I haven’t exactly been easy to deal with lately. I absolutely loved it and you were right as always.
Better now than later. I know you want this, and you’re going to get it too. The audition piece we’ve been working on for you is incredible and I promise you I’m not just saying that to make you feel better. It’s honestly breathtaking and one of the greatest songs I’ve ever heard you sing. As talented as I’m sure everyone else will be, not one of them are going to have what you have to offer. You’re going to kill this audition, Gorgeous. It’s just a matter of relaxing and getting you to believe that.
Oh my god, oh my god, oh my god. I just got my NYADA audition date and it’s sooner than I thought and oh my god. Blaine has been helping me prepare for months but now I’m suddenly left feeling like there is no chance and hell this is going to go smoothly. Maybe I should just do a different number and oh my god, what if it doesn’t go right? What if I don’t get in? What if I’ve just wasted the past few months? This is the most stressful thing of my life. I’m going to have to book the flights and hotel when we get home but… What if I choke? What if the plane crashes? Oh god, maybe we should drive. Driving would be better, wouldn’t it, then I could practice singing my song in different ways to see which way everyone else prefers, then again, what if I lose my voice by the time I get there? Or my entire body just becomes paralyzed with fear and I can’t move? Oh my god. If I had an emergency button, I’d be pushing it right about now. I have been completely fine up until this moment, but now I can’t breathe. What if the judges hate me? I can’t handle this kind of pressure, it’s too much.
Kurt, stop. The plane’s not going to crash, but I have no problem with driving you up to your audition. You’re going to jinx yourself if you keep worrying so much. I can drive and we’ll even pick you up some tea and honey to help keep your voice in check. Your audition number is incredible. The judges are going to be completely blown away and even if we choose a different song, they’re still going to love it and they’re going to love you. NYADA needs more people like Kurt Hummel. You’re a triple threat and everyone’s going to know it by the end of your audition. I know you’re going to blow them away with your talent alone because the Kurt Hummel I know does not choke. You’re amazing, Kurt. All this audition is, is you showing them that. I have plans for us this afternoon, so I hope you’re not busy with anything because I think it’ll do you some good.